Not Cute

I remember, I thought

he was kinda cute,

until his words

slapped me brutal.

 

Told another boy,

"Man that's the ugliest girl, I've

ever seen", laughing down.

 

Eyes peaked with

warm tears, that

seeped away all

the dignity left in me..

 Felt I was underneath

the concrete I stood upon,

blended in, near dingy

trampled grass.

 

My voice seemed distant
not yet present
to retaliate
for the sake of me.

Momma told me not to worry,

she said, "That's just baby fat"

knew I was nobody's baby.

 

I came to think

my sweet tummy

rolls of flesh were

stacked just like

3-layer chocolate cake.

 Too much of it just makes you sick.

 

Tanette
2006